Therefore I dedicate myself to myself.

Good morning! I'm getting my writing in early while both boys are asleep. This week is going to be really hot so I am brainstorming some indoor activities for me and Aiden. I want to avoid going out as much as possible, especially with Brody. Now that Brody is here I plan on resuming my crafts. I've been looking for some local craft fairs coming up and plan on attending a couple hopefully. (if you know of any... let me know!)
Steve has been working two jobs lately so I can stay home with the boys. I have mixed feelings about this for so many reasons. I want to get a job and be able to contribute to the house and my family. I also know that getting a job would mean I have to put the boys in daycare (which I DO NOT want to do) and even with a job, my pay would probably just cover daycare. I know it makes more sense for us to keep doing what we are doing but I feel like I can be doing so much more (even though being a stay at home mom is A LOT of work in itself). I'll figure it all out before the summer is over.
For quite some time I have been keeping myself at a distance from people and having a hard time trusting people. This has resulted in me having NO close friends. It gets a bit discouraging at times not having a close friend to go out with or to confide in. In the past anytime I got really close to someone or felt close enough to confide in them it always backfires and they turned out to be crazy or just not a trustworthy person (among other things). I didn't think having friends was so difficult. Now that I'm getting older I really want friends. I want to be able to trust again and be around mature people who are drama free and not...well... crazy. My kids are my MAIN priority and meeting other lady friends who have the same outlook that I do would be great. One of my goals for this year is to make more friends and not push people away. I'm going to be more open minded and outgoing and hope that this time it will not backfire on me. Maybe now that I'm older and able to use better judgement I can do this.
Well I'm off to plan some fun things for me and my boys. <3 Until next time...

Stephanie