Learn to let go

It certainly is not easy finding some down time to write in here as often as i'd like to but I'm glad I'm able to make an appearance every now and then. I've been feeling super irritated lately. I want to move rather badly and it seems like Steve and I can not agree on anything ever. I feel like he goes against me on purpose. Nothing is ever easy with him and some people find that interesting about a mate... I find it annoying. There are too many things to list which is equally annoying since you'd think he'd compromise with me on something. Oh well.
The longer you don't do something the more you don't have the desire to do it. I've been out of work for so long and even though I say I want a job... I don't want to work. I've been in the house all week with the boys because of this heat. Now the thought of going anywhere with the two of them does not get me excited at all. I'd rather just continue staying in the house. None of this can be good. I need to stop being lazy but I have no motivation to do anything or go anywhere. I feel like my relationship and the things I have going on contribute to what I'm feeling all the time and it's nothing positive at the moment. I know I need to change these things and make them positives but I feel like I have everything working against me. I read all of these "mommy blogs" and they are so inspirational and uplifting and they make me want to do great things and be a better me.... Then I look at what I have to work with and I get pulled right back down again. They have great support systems from their spouse/significant other, family,friends, etc. They seem to have it all together...so what's wrong with me?
What can I do to change all of this?!