On my drive to work this morning I started thinking about a lot of things...a lot! I know over the past year I have questioned so many decisions I have made and so many things that had been happening with me and I was so unsure about so many things in my life. I was depressed for so many months! Now I dont know if its just the hormones from me being pregnant thats making me feel this way but this morning I realized my life is more than amazing.
Of course Steve and I have had ups and downs...what relationship doesn't. No relationship is perfect no matter what people want to believe. He loves me and supports me and stands by me no matter what we go through and what more could I ask for from another human being. Not only is he going to be an amazing husband but he is such a wonderful daddy. It's crazy how much a person can change in such a short time but Steve has changed (for the better) more than I had ever imagined. I love knowing that he is mine and that we are our own family and we are in love. We have everything anyone could need.
With our second babe on it's way we've had doubts about things but then realized we're going to be more than fine.
I am really a lucky girl. I've got my soul mate, I have my son who is my whole heart and means the absolute world to me, I've got great friends who I trust and confide in and are there for me always, I have a super supportive family who are so good to me, I have a job making more money than most people my age even the ones who spent all that time in college, I have a house, a car and other materialistic things. I'm young and have so much to look forward too. I'm not going to have anymore doubts or worry about things that I have no control over and focus on everything important to me and making my family better and stronger than we already are. I guess I had a revelation this morning that just made me in the absolute best mood ever and made me realize that I love being me. There are so many people who don't have close to what I have. My ex- boyfriend calls me every now and then so depressed cause he can not get his life together and I never know what to tell him.He's only dated one other girl after me but his life is just all sorts of chaotic and he's the same age as me and still lives at home with his parents. I have people I know complaining they can't find a significant other or someone to be with.I guess what I'm trying to say is I'm grateful for everything I have and the decisions I have made up until now. If i didn't take chances and choices I'd probably still be with my ex putting up with his crap and lies and whatever else...and I'd probably still have those same horrible friends that I let walk all over me. So glad thats all done now.
I have a 4 day weekend after today and I'm excited to spend so much time with Aiden. When I ask him where the baby is he lifts up my shirt and tickles my belly and pokes my belly button haha. He is so silly! I'm so excited for so many things, i just wish the weather would get nicer so we are able to enjoy them <3
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